Motherhood lives in the nervous system

There is a specific kind of exhaustion that doesn’t come from doing too much.It comes from being needed all the time.From carrying the logistics.The emotional weather.The planning.The remembering.The anticipating.From being the one who knows what everyone needs before they need it.From being the human calendar.The human pillow.The human emergency exit.And then being told you should be grateful.This gathering is for women who love their children, but feel themselves disappearing inside the role.For women who are functioning, but not living.For women who are tired of being the infrastructure of everyone else’s life.We don’t gather to become better mothers.We gather to tell the truth.What we will doThis is a structured, guided gathering. The focus is articulation.We are holding a shared space where you can name what motherhood has actually demanded of you.Not the beautiful parts.Not the acceptable parts.The real cost.You will write in response to precise prompts.You will reflect before speaking.You may share, or not.You do not need to be positive.You do not need to be “strong.”You do not need to make it sound meaningful.You are allowed to be honest without being judged.The focus of the eveningWe explore parts of motherhood that are rarely spoken about directly:• the exhaustion that sleep cannot fix• the invisible work no one counts• the resentment that comes from being taken for granted• the loss of erotic space and personal time• the emotional labour of holding everyone together• the grief of the woman you used to be• the fear that this is just your life nowThis is not about parenting strategies.It is about reality.Many women carry enormous pressure in silence because they don’t want to sound ungrateful.This gathering offers a way to name what is true, without collapsing into shame.The MotherholeThe Motherhole.The first gate.The original opening.The Motherhole is the place where life arrives, where identity fractures, where something that was once yours becomes a passage for others.And then, one day, becomes yours again.The Motherhole gatherings are not events. They are encounters.Spaces where women come to speak from inside what actually happened, and what is happening now.Not to be fixed.Not to be guided.Not to be improved.But to be heard.Each Motherhole gathering follows a shared method.Not because one method fits all, but because experience needs holding in order to move.We work with words, bodies, breath, and sound.Sometimes with silence.Sometimes with meditation.Sometimes through writing.Sometimes through reading and voicing.Sometimes through movement or stillness.Not everything happens every time.But always a shared speaking at the end.Nothing is forced.You can speak.You can stay quiet.You can pass.Listening counts.The structure holds the room so experience can move, without being explained, fixed, or turned into a performance.The Motherhole has three realmsErosThe realm of desire.Of appetite.Of what still wants you.Sex. Rage. Hunger. Refusal.The pull toward life that never went quiet.Enter Eros if something in you is awake and restless.MotherThe realm of cost.Of responsibility.Of what life required of you.Birth. Care. Loss of self.The moment you became a passage.Enter Mother if your life split in two and never fully rejoined.CroneThe realm of ownership.Of what you no longer give away.No more passage for life.No more explanation.Menopause. Authority. Clarity.The moment you stop bleeding and start leading yourself.Read more at Https://themotherhole.comPractical details• Time: Doors open at 17.30. Come early to land in the space, eat before we begin. Gathering starts at 18:00• Length: 3 hours• Group size: Maximum 12 participants• Location: Sensual Institute, Tavastgatan 43, 118 24 Stockholm• Price: 500 SEK• Snacks and drinks includedSpace holderCamilla Wellton, mother, creator of the Sensual Hero’s Journey™ and author of the I AWAKE seriesFind out more at https://www.instagram.com/iawakesystem and https://www.i-awake.com• Dress as you like • Queer friendly • Neurospicy friendlyBooking & pricing• 500 SEK per participantif you feel called but cannot afford it right now pls reach out and we’ll figure something out!• Bookings are non-refundable, but transferable